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Hi world,

Sorry its been a week since I updated my blog. Not the usual me of course. So some things happened and I didn't really want to blog. Just thought that its actually been quite a while since I last blogged, never knew it could've been one entire week. Honestly I'm just quite blank now and have no idea what I'm going to continue typing and when this blog post is gonna end. So I think I'll just write about some blurred dream that I had recently, maybe the past few days. I actually ended my A levels on Friday, and this wasn't part of my dream of course. Even though I have ended my As, I still had a rather weird dream of me missing my Chemistry paper. So it actually started like I didn't feel like sitting for the paper, and ended up not going for the paper. So I was thinking about taking the paper on the other day, which is what I thought they would do for people who had real valid reasons for not making it to the exam on that particular day. So on that day, I went to the clinic and took an MC (Medical Certificate) so that I have a valid reason for not sitting for the paper. Then after going back to school, many people told me that the paper for that day was actually very easy. I actually regretted not going for the paper, since the next paper which is the make up paper may actually be harder than the initial one. So I was quite sad, not sure when I woke up though. For me, I actually think that dreams are actually what people think about all the time. Maybe I had read it somewhere or something, or maybe it could just be something that I thought about it and made sense to me. I believe that dream is like a compilation of all the things that have been happening in your mind and just plug them all together, to form a dream that is usually unexplainable. Its surprising how our brain is able to compile all of the weird things that we have in our brain, to a dream, which is like a real life situation. So I believe that all dreams actually have a trigger. Since we cannot control our dreams, or we cannot control what we think about, there's no point forcing a dream into ourselves right, it just doesn't make sense. Even if we constantly think about something or someone, that may not be part of our dream for that day too. Dreams are just weird. So actually even though I've ended my As and I could feel the freedom? I still feel bored and sick. I actually just feel like tying myself onto my bed and just sleep for as long as I can, and go no where. Things around me just seem to have devalued, nothing feels as much as they actually should. The worth of plain water and a computer which are both beside me seems the same. Of course, thats not when I really think about the prices for each of the items. What I mean is just thinking about it. Maybe no one would have understood me too, but I think it doesn't matter. There's nothing wrong with leading your own life on your own right? Afterall its your own life, no one else should be able to stop you from doing anything you want. Thats like human rights right? I actually don't feel like continuing my post anymore, see you guys soon on my next post. Bye.

Beh