Walking home

Hi world,

I'm so tired and walking home rn. So much happened today and I'm really very sad and tired... To just put it here what happened, it is the day I booked an extra bike lesson when I thought you would be busy with funeral stuffs. But there's just too many things that I thought. Even though we're not together anymore, I still feel like I'll have to cater to you? Maybe that's just what a decent friend should do? Anyway I'm so confused, like idk, maybe my life is just like this? I'm probably stuck on with you forever even though we probably won't be together anymore. I don't even know what phase of life this is considered. Anyway, went for bike lesson and it was raining halfway through, it is my 4.01, s course. Failed my first practical lesson, kinda sad about it, but can't do anything I suppose. Nobody passed this time round, kinda ridiculous how it's raining and he still expect us to all be able to complete at one go, under 11 seconds. And the instructor wasn't even paying attention the whole time. Hopefully I don't get him again, what a waste of time and money. Now I just don't have the mood to go for classes, I guess I'll really need to take a break from everything and just make you happy with what I promised you this time round. Honestly it doesn't feel that different from when we're together (my responsibilities, what I need to do when you're angry, like apologising and making up for my mistakes? Idk do you even impose this on all of your friends?) Sigh. How can I even move on honestly? Anyway I'm writing it here likely because it'll just be one long time before you'll be coming back to my blog. Something you used to do almost on a daily basis, but you've forgotten about my blog, forgotten about my feelings. You should continue to chase your own happiness and I'll move on when I have to. Going go bathe now goodnight

Beh