Hi

Hello world!

I thought I have been feeling better the last few weeks / days ever since my finals have been over, but everything just seems to crumble down all over again now.. I'm so tired of everything again, but it feels different this time round. It isn't that I don't know what I want in life, but it feels like it is too hard to move on? Maybe as a person I have issues, maybe I just don't have someone where I can really talk to, someone who doesn't know me and wouldn't judge me, wouldn't judge what I've been through, and someone who will really love me for who I am and walk this life with me. I don't want to bring my baggage onto someone else, into my next relationship. But does that mean I'll have to shoulder all this toughness myself? Do I have to just suck it up and stop thinking that I deserve any pity for who I am now, and how I turned out this way? We just can't forget some things can we? All these bruises and scars..? I'm really tired and I feel like I need to get work done. Maybe it is best that I leave everything aside for a while and just focus on doing things myself... I really should just hibernate and be away. Someone please tell me that that's ok and let me do it.

Beh