Lost

Hello world!

I feel so upset and lost today.. I really am. I have no motivation to do anything and it feels like no one really cares about me. Maybe people do care but I just feel so sad that I am no longer anyone's priority. It feels like I'll barely make a difference to anyone's life if I'm gone and that's really upsetting me. Maybe this should be a lesson to teach me that I don't need anyone and I don't need be of importance to anyone else. Idk I'm lost. What should I really be doing with my life? No one really cares about me. Why is it so hard to be alive? It's not easy to just die as well. People will be sad and blaming themselves for not caring enough and not paying enough attention. This is so tough. I really don't know who I can talk to, who I can rely on, and whether I should even be bothering anyone. Everyone has their own life to live and really, who wants to listen? I'll barely mean anything to them anyway. Life just sucks. Maybe if I were to die, it should be an accident. At least people will just be upset that I'm gone, and nothing about my feelings or how they haven't done well as friends / parents. Send help pls. 

Beh