Been awhile~

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Been awhile since I last posted! So I have been serving my intern for almost a month now. Had some days of WFH at the start of the intern, before having to go to office everyday in the past week and onwards.. so I wake up rather early to travel to work everyday. I watch shows on the way to work and back as well! Just got to play mahjong yesterday after a really long time. And finally went to ikea to change away the chairs that were broken! I tried bluesg for the first time in the past week and custom ordered Trapo car mats! Hope they will be coming soon! Been playing maple for quite a number of weeks now and enjoyed the game ^^ sleeping now!

Beh

Henlo

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It has been quite a while since I last blogged! Have been busy at home with the circuit breaker, playing games most of the time. Only started to have internship this week and it’s finally the end of the first week! 9 weeks to go! So there’s like a poly intern who is taking business and IT diploma. Cannot understand why someone who has no usage of computers dare to study IT! How do people grow up without having computers and relying only on phones? Feels like they are lacing on something isn’t it? Okay I shall take my long weekend sleep ^^

Beh

CB

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So now we’re in the midst of the Circuit Breaker period also known as the CB period! Everyday I just sleep and study a little bit! Exams are gonna be over in a weeks time and I’m so glad! So much rest this year which is a good thing?!

Beh

Aircon today

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Enjoying the aircon today because past few days always only have fan! Looks humid and looks like its going to rain soon... Shall be heading to bed to enjoy more good nights while Singapore is in a partial lockdown!

Beh

Project down!

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Yay one more project down! Have like one more presentation and the rest is like all finals? Not many finals but still have! No choice have to study! Going to sleep to wake up early tmr!

Beh

Hello

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So Singapore is going into a partial lockdown, considering that all non essential businesses gonna stop operating, so maybe my Father won’t have to go to work anymore?! Not like his work can be done at home anyway. And my school has announced that for finals that are done in school on paper, they will be cancelled. So I’m like just left with half of my finals? So glad that I didn’t really study for them yet! But oh no I just realised I bought 3 papers last week and they’re all cancelled!!! What a waste of $7 but I would rather finals not happen?!?! After all these mods aren’t exactly easy. Now just gives me more time to do other mods! So today my Liho broke while carrying it otw to the car. I can’t decide if it’s been a good day though considering the number of times I’ve been scolded ): but the finals announcement is all good. Not the worst day I suppose!

Beh

Sorry

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Sorry for not blogging for the past few days, past many days in fact.. I was really busy with school even though I had planned to S/U everything this semester. Somehow I just feel so overwhelmed this semester and has so much projects to do, so much work to do. Even though I don't feel like doing any of the work, I still have to do them because they are group projects, and I should just be a responsible teammate. I feel so overwhelmed right now as well, sometimes I just feel so useless and worthless that I feel like I should just jump down and end it all. But I think I can control my stress and just go on with life. After all, life is going to be stressful no matter which stage it is. Hopefully it will all be over soon. Sometimes we are happy and sometimes we are desperate / overwhelmed and feel like dying, but life still goes on. What will people remember me by? That was like a question that I was asked to present during career readiness two weeks ago. I said some bullshit about how I would want people to remember me as someone who keeps his promises, but I guess nobody will even remember me. Not saying that its not a good thing to keep my promise, but I don't think I can keep my own promise to myself that I had enough and I will end my life? Sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk to, especially when you are angry, or when you just stopped being angry. By telling you how I feel, it is as good as telling you that I care so much more about myself than you, and things just don't turn out well after that. Sometimes I just go to sleep crying. Sometimes I wake up crying but not for a bad reason - like I just remember how my mum was like before she got dementia, how my grandmother would give me her pork ribs and ate only porridge, those were the happy days when I was a kid, I will never be able to experience all this again. Sometimes I just feel so sad like right now. What can I do? Nothing else I suppose. I guess no one understands how I feel right now. At least thinking about all these can stop me from thinking about how you don't care about me at times, how you think I'm useless and lazy and a fucking fat loser. I know you don't mean them, you say them when you're angry? But they hurt. They really really really hurt. They really get me thinking how useless I am. I don't know if I want to die to make you regret your words, or if I want to die because I feel desperate and useless, I really don't know. I hate how you don't want me to tell you all these things when I'm sad and feel like dying. You just treat them as a 'threat'. How else should I say how I feel? I'm sorry that you think I'm not good enough, that I'm not doing enough. I admit that I am lazy most of the time. But I would say that I help you wholeheartedly. Sorry that they mean nothing to you when they don't meet your expectations. Not being sarcastic but sorry for not being good enough. Idk if it is your moodswings now, how you feel I am useless, but some things that you type just don't flow. I don't understand what you want sometimes and you think I'm not paying attention / care / want to help you. When I ask, you get even more pissed off. I'm really tired now and I guess I'll feel much better after I wake up tomorrow. I don't think one day I'll really die though, like I don't even dare to cut myself (but cutting myself is something that I see no point in), like at least by dying, everything will be over right? Oh idk what I get by punching the table though, I guess its a way to vent my anger? Goodnight.

Beh

Sleeeep

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Quite tired now ): So lazy to study for anything after they announced that everything can be S/U-ed!! So little time to study for so many things ): Feels like sleeping and wake up tomorrow to group meetings~ Hope it will all be over soon!

Beh

Hiii

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So today my school announced that this semesters grades can be considered S/U, which means I don’t have to study anymore!! Such good news! Since I don’t think I’ll be getting A or A- for most of my mods.. still have so many projects due though, people don’t want to S/U.. damn!

Beh

So much work

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Keep having so many projects to do ): I just want to finish all of them!! Gonna study tomorrow morning to clear up some stuff! Goodnight~

Beh

Hihi

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It’s a tiring day ): don’t have enough sleep cos slept really late due to group project last night.. more projects to come so need to continue preparing! Hope these few weeks of hell end soon!! Looking forward to holidays!

Beh

Returned from Malaysia last night

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Went into JB yesterday just before Malaysia locked down to collect some stuffs.. Came back quite late and slept because I was very tired. Woke up early today for school and feels very tired now. Just feel like I have so many things to do and I can't even complain about it. Maybe this can be my channel of complaint when I have no one to complain to. Not like anyone will read my blog anyway. Feels so tired of everything with so many projects to do, so many tests to study for. I just feel so drained and useless. If only I can be like doggo who just runs around and have nothing to worry about, how good will life be. Sometimes I just hope I can shut down from life.

Beh

Busy week~

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This week is a busy week! Quiz coming up on Wednesday and I have another oral test on Friday~ Then after that I need to be busy with a submission by Sunday and start preparing for presentation on the next Monday! Going to sleep early because I have another meeting tomorrow~ Goodnight world~

Beh

Weekend!

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It’s Friday Friday gonna get down on Friday~ gonna get down on the bed on a Friday! Friday is rest day so I shall go to bed! It’s a bit late now though! Should have been in bed much earlier.. but it’s never too late! Stupid rabbit is stomping for nothing again! Goodnight!

Beh

Hiiii

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Week 8 is going to be over ): Means exams are coming soon! Can't wait for the sem to be over!! Even though I don't like exams.. So much to study its like never ending ): Projects as well!

Beh

Wednesday!

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Middle of week 8 is over! I have meetings like almost everyday ): Have so many projects to be done also, so busy!! Next week still have a quiz that I need to study... Haiss can't wait for the semester to be over even if it means I'll have to start my intern!!

Beh

Presentations!!

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Yay one presentation down! How I wish presentations all end! So stressful having to memorise them and wearing formal! Can’t wait for all of them to be over! Day one of post recess week is over and I am going to sleep! Yawn yawn!

Beh

Recess week over ):

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Ending recess week with two presentations!! So sad I just want to sleep past the presentations ): Haiss this is such a busy semester I just want it to be over soon!!

Beh

Thursday!

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Thursday is over already! Brought Latte to neuter and went out for a while! The recess week is ending soon ): Need to study more and more and hope the semester ends soon!!

Beh

Healthy living!

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It’s recess week but like not giving myself a break! Going to the gym every other day and eating healthily Everyday! Hopefully I can slim down soon! Feels like I need to drink more water to prevent sore throat but I also dw to go pee in the middle of the night.. looks like going to toilet is inevitable..

Beh

Day 2!

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First day of recess week over! Looking forward to day 2 and to study more! Went to the gym today so feeling fit again! Maybe if we continue to gym and eat healthy food I can be fit again! Can’t wait to go to bed now :x

Beh

Hii

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It’s the start of the recess week! It means it’s the start of studying! Half of my NTU life is going to be over by the end of this semester. Just 2 years to go! Hope I end off well and find a job~

Beh

School ):

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Yay? Its finally recess week! I don't really understand some things about school ): Really need to start reading up during this recess week! Not sure who I can look for to seek help also.. Feels like I'm getting fitter slowly by going to the gym with bee hahaha lets keep it this way! Sunny looks nice with the new license plate now~ And looks really nice well polished!

Beh

Tired

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Having a backache.. Must be because I am old already... So many things to study, time passes so quickly! Might need to spend more time studying tomorrow and doing projects that are due soon! Need to stop procrastinating and get down to work!

Beh

Tired

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Not sure why but its a tiring day.. Maybe I didn't have enough sleep last night.. Must have been thinking about the poor dog that was lost... Dozing off in class today because it was so boring... Now I should head to bed like doggo!

Beh

Lost dog

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What an eventful day... Went to JB to do car plate and polish the car due to some marks on the car made by everyone... Just nice the sun visor is done, so I have everything up in the car now! Saw a brown dog roaming around, wanted to stop him but was too late... Let's hope he is fine!! And lets hope doggo never ever get lost!

Beh

Part time job

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If you don’t already know, I actually hold many part time jobs. I am a dog care taker as well as a meme sharer. Sadly I don’t generate meme yet at the moment! I hope to generate money some day!

Beh

Exchange~

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Applied for my third round of exchange! Wish me luck~ Not sure why but I have been waking up very late everyday ): Need to wake up early tomorrow because I need to wake bee up~ Goodnight world~

Beh

Can't wake!

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I have been waking up so late recently! Like I keep nua in bed and don't want to wake up ): Need to totally stop this bad habit and wake up early! It must be too comfortable to stay in bed! Need to start waking early!! Need to study more and slack less ):

Beh

Tired

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Tiring school days ): not enough rest! Can’t rest on weekends as well!! Need to study more ): luckily I have my professional attachment secured! Next will be exchange? Don’t know if I should be happy if I got one, it means I have to spend money!!

Beh

V day!

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Looks like another unproductive day! Have to be more productive during the weekends! Tomorrow is V day so I will need to be busy as well ^^ I shall wake up early to study!

Beh

Tired

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The long and dreadful Wednesday is finally over! Hates lessons on Wednesday because its like one full day gone... But then again, it always reminds me of how much I am lagging behind and need to study so much more! Slept till so late today and I really need to stop nua-ing in bed! I keep on turning off alarms haiss Time to wake early!!

Beh

Age

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What a sad age to be on now! At the age where I have no money, still studying, have no time, and always feeling tired ): Don't like to be having school but it should be over soon! Like two years to go? Its already week 5 now and I have so much to study! Its like the cycle happens over and over again every semester! But looks like this is just school life for me ): Bee is finally getting out of it! But maybe working life is not all that good afterall hahaha

Beh

Sleeps

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So sad the school is starting again tomorrow... At least this week I have more things prepared! Last week for Marketing tutorial, I didn't even do the tutorial! At least I have it done and for tomorrow's presentations, I'm somewhat ready? I mean I prepared my slides! Hope this will be a better week, like I would be able to catch up everything ^^

Beh

DORSCON ORANGE!

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The virus alert increased! Now we can only stay at home and swipe tinder! Still fun though.. hopefully we can study more tomorrow and swipe less hahaha goodnight!

Beh

Car camera!

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My reverse camera from AliExpress came today! Took 2 hours to change my old camera to my new one. Now the new one can angle much better than the old one, without paying the price of 100 RM (which was a rip off imo!) liking the new camera now! Yet to screw in, my father will do so tomorrow hahaha I bought it off AliExpress at $15 I think? Seems good!

Beh

Schooool

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New year vibes going away and school coming back ): need to get back on track soon! Not studying enough and going to tutorials unprepared!! Shall start as soon as possible!

Beh

Cluedo

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Busy these few days having school but not really studying much ): thought I have school today and went to school only to find out that it starts in two weeks time!! We went to Popular after that and bought Cluedo, still clueless about how to play though! Carpark so full and had to drive all the way up to the sixth floor for a lot near the lift! Gonna head to bed!

Beh

Bad

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Why is the corona virus so bad?! Hope they control it soon and I can go out freely again without fear when people cough! Going to head to bed soon to study again tomorrow ): so lazy!! Goodnight!

Beh

Cny day 2!

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It’s the second day of CNY! Didn’t make any money today (technically made money after 2359 last night hahaha) maybe wealthy luck can run out too! Waiting for another round of gambling but also waiting for another round of studying!

Beh

Happy CNY!

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Its been long since I started this blog! Not sure how many CNY has passed already but yay again! The car camera that was installed doesn't seem good, so maybe getting a new one! Spend $20 on a small camera? Should be worth it if I can adjust right? The shop was gonna charge me $30 for something that I can get way cheaper! It doesn't look like its a good camera (the one from them) hahaha I'll be better off getting my own camera!

Beh

Hiii

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Lazy Thursday!! Didn’t study at all today and spent the whole day out ): already in the CNY mood!! Changed bedsheet, clean the house, now everything is clean! Time to sleep!

Beh

No more school for the week!

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Yay its wednesday and I have no more school left for the week! Still have some lectures though and need to catch up with some work at home ): Can't wait for CNY to relax and get my angbaos! Feeling so poor now I need more angbaos!!

Beh

Trouble makers

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I have an insta pic captioned Double Trouble. It is my vehicle in NS and my gf. Seems like its time to post another pic of double trouble with her and the dog!! Stupid dog only knows how to pee and poop at the wrong places!!

Beh

Henlo

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Henlo everyday! So doggo just went for a fur cut today~ Using furminator, managed to help him get out a bit of fur, but it seems like its never ending.. furminator should be better than fobnimarut! Chinese New Year is round the corner and I feel so lazy to study for anything!! Maybe I should really study tomorrow morning!

Beh

Henlo

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The weekend is over! Starting week 2 now ): feels like I haven’t study much this weekend or rather I didn’t even study anything! Studied a little during the last week? But CNY is coming soon! Maybe I need to work harder during the weekdays! Going to cut fur for doggo tomorrow~

Beh

Installed android player!

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After dragging for so long and thinking about wanting to install, I finally got it done! Was still wondering how it could be done last week, without any holder for the dashboard. That was until I saw someone selling it online! Proceeded to order it and received today, installed today! System is a bit slow but all is good!

Beh

Weird mouth taste

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Week 1 is a breeze! But feels like I will need to study more for week 1 in case I start lagging behind! Feels like I have a weird taste in my mouth... Its not getting any better though ):

Beh

Holder!

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Just bought a bracket for the android player for Sunny! It is coming true! Will be getting a new reverse camera and a new screen! Sounds like a really good upgrade after so long hahaha Hopefully my father can now reverse safely!

Beh

Sleeps!

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Went for a night run today, managed to do 3km! Wondering why running outside seems to be slower than running in the gym. Pace keeps slowing down, maybe no one to keep me on track! Needs more practicing to shave my timing down!

Beh

Dog and pee

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Don't know what is this dog thinking, keeps peeing all over the places. Now he found a new place to pee, under the balcony door (where there are tracks for the door to roll). His fur usually gets stuck there, and now its like drenched in pee!!! Ridiculous!! And then, maybe Sunny can get the android player installed soon with reverse camera! Looks like casing for it can be found online, so hopefully can get it!

Beh

Tiring!

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School is starting soon ): Time passes so quickly and the holidays already over! So went in to JB today wanting to fit DVD player / reverse camera, but ended up doing fog lights instead. Looks good but needs a bit of touchup because its not tight enough! Maybe I'll DIY a bit tomorrow!

Beh

Sleepy sleepo

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Soooo tired! Went for a swim today and doggo keep want us to bring him along, so we got no choice but to bring him out. He keeps whining and barking, not like the usual him. No idea why he so whiny today. Feels like sleeping already~

Beh

Hiii

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After a long night of work, I can finally go back to sleep during the night time! Always thought that it was better to work at night since its not so hot, but then again, it disrupts my sleep cycle! Now I wish I never worked night :x I was so tired this morning at work, that I would fall asleep anytime... Now it seems like its better to work day time and bear the heat hahaha

Beh

Work

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Having a blocked nose right now ): just ended a whole long day of work, was quite hot but didn’t get any sunburn because I was sitting in the lorry and also wearing long sleeved! It can get quite stuffy but I think it’s good that I didn’t get any sunburn? Going to have a little rest tomorrow before starting work again at night! Few more days of work before I call it a sem break!

Beh

Sleep time!

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So my father won an iPad mini from his lucky draw event and I'm more excited than he is! I just bought a cover off the internet for the iPad hahaha I always wanted an iPad mini cos it was so cute but never thought that it would be so outdated :x It is still using touchid and has no force touch. Maybe cos this is the cheapest 64GB WIFI iPad Mini 5 that you can find. But still, it can be used to watch shows etc. So... not that bad? Just went in to Malaysia for dinner and wow Shell is closed! Not sure why though, had to pump Petronas. Never again I believe. They didn't allow me to pay by card like after refuelling. You have to decide how much to pump, before they allow you to do so. How would I know how much I need to pump right?!

Beh

Doggo to the vet!

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Brought doggo to the vet today and it seems like everything is fine! Just that he might need some time to recover so cannot work himself too much now! I am the one who is going to fall sick and needs lots of rest now ):

Beh

Happy New Year!

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Happy new year! Having a sorethroat soon which is not a good way to start the new year! Hopefully I recover soon as well~ Bringing doggo to see a vet tomorrow because he had brown / red pee yesterday! Went to JB for some lunner and a good car wash~ Time to take a good night sleep ^^

Beh